I had to borrow one kiao from my ex just to buy your meds. Dirt poor? Maybe. I have no idea. I've got nowhere else to run to for the money. Besides who would hand me such amount in a hold-up-like manner? All I wanted at that time was for you to be ok. I think up to this second that's all I want. You to be ok.
Last night you were sick again, although last night was different. Same heart condition, but what happened was different. I think it was.
We were in some forgotten alley in QC, around 5pm if I'm not mistaken. Usual dusky mood. We got to talk this time and I don't know what your ailment got to do with this. My future? You were always concerned with what would happen to me. What should happen to me. I think it's only then that I've realized how much I miss it when you say, "When we're together we'll be..". I used to hate that, but last night I was just sparkly-eyed. I can't remember a single word you said though.
Thoughts were swimming. I'm really planning to stay with you. Us to be together. As in for good. Am only 22 and I've got much more to learn. I know there's too much emotion - what I've said - and logic should be involved but like what I've told you earlier, I know what I want. You know me. I stand by my decisions. In a nutshell I love you and I want you to be mine. As in for good.
Did I just make these thoughts talk? In drunk-like fashion? Again?
"Be careful for what you wish for, it might come true." was all I heard from you. Oh yeah. That's exactly what I wanted to hear from you at that very moment.
I don't know what's happening with us and I don't want to talk like I just came home from Taking Back Sunday's gig. You know how praning I can get.
Dumb founded. I just stared at my bowl and continued to eat in silence. I dunno where the bowl of rice with corned beef came from. It was cold but tasted good when we mashed spiders in it. With it. Whatever.
In case you ask, I forgot what you were wearing, so.. No. You can't tell me "hey, that's what I'm wearing right now" and yes, everything's still blurred.
Well I know it's kind of late, I hope I didn't wake you..
